I remember you looking like my faith
And smelling like the drugs I hate
I remember I thought I was death
I couldn’t even look at you without being sad
I remember the day we kissed
Oh all the things you made me missed
How your laugh made me high
How your lips made me numb
It was a fairy tale without an end
You got bored and went to the wonderland
Do you miss your drugs and all the games?
Do you miss me or was I just another name?
“We have calcium in our bones, iron in our veins,
carbon in our souls, and nitrogen in our brains.
93 percent stardust, with souls made of flames,
we are all just stars that have people names.”
- 93 Percent Stardust | Nikita Gill
Words to remember.
Z asked the right question the other day – was it calmness or sedation?
I picked the latter.
Tell me all of your secrets
The darker it is the better
I can cut a little deeper
Show you my pain under my sweater
It’s been lonely here
Since your mysterious disappear
I’ve been dreaming about you a lot
All day and all night
I miss the taste of your lips
I miss the way you kissed
It’s been lonely here
Since your mystical disappear
– Hedonist Poet
Who knew it would all be so soon?
I loved the way you called me ‘Elf’.
Most of my friends do and every time they do that I can’t help but feel a sense of endearment and I love it.
It had an additional touch when it came from you, though.
It’s true when you said it’s clearer now cause everything’s out in the open.
This morning felt like a different kind of special cause you told me what I had been wanting to hear – wishing we could go back to happier times. Cause it’s proof I wasn’t the only one feeling this way and that was important to me.
I’m just so thankful we moved in a better and clearer direction now – with everything else out of the way, all the lies, all the hurt, all that was bad.
Stripping it all down to the bare essentials.
You ruined me
in the best way possible
And I was your willing victim
I knew you were bad for me
But I can’t stop
You’re a thrill
Your touches felt warm once in awhile
Your kisses felt like home sometimes
It’s like we enter a completely different realm every time we touch
But why couldn’t you trust me?
I would’ve loved you.
A fallen angel from a faraway heaven, with a bittersweet past fraught with a demon,
living inside her mind, listening to her melodramatic sermon,
under her skin, inside her beautiful tavern